I was starting to worry about money the other day. I realized that I was getting back into the old bad habits and jumping into debt with both feet. The bad thing is that my student loans have gone up to about $300.00, which is about $100.00 more than they used to be and even though I pay less for my mortgage than I did for rent I’m finding it hard not to live paycheck to paycheck. To resolve this remedy I sold off some of my stock today for about $1700.00 and with the money I’ll be able to pay off my computer and have an extra $150.00 a month. This should hold me over until I get my taxes and bonus in February/March. Then I can start to pay my credit cards down and get back on track.
Once again I’m tired and having a hard time keeping my eyes open past 8. I have to force myself to stay up late because I woke up at 2 this morning again and I don’t want to do that again. Some weeks I just can’t win. If I go to bed to early then I wake up in the middle of the night and I can’t go back to sleep. If I go to bed too late then I’m tired the next day and I have to fight to stay awake at my desk come 1:00. I end up going to the vending machine and getting a Pepsi® or Mountain Dew® and then I get acid reflux big time because of the caffeine I need to stay awake. I was good today though I would just try and get up and walk it off or drink more water.
Tomorrow is Christi’s birthday, she’s going to be 25. It’s that just the cutest thing? I’m 12 years older than her. I told her today that I remember the year she was born and it was about the time I saw Grease the first time it was in the theatre. Then I started to think about things that were different for her than me. She didn’t know a world without Elvis impersonators while I remember the day the King died. She was only 3 at most when AIDS hit so she’ll never really know a world without it, well let’s hope that she will one day know a cure. There were others but it just made me feel really old so I stopped thinking about it. That’s about when Kitty told me that I looked like a distinguished man in the blue Tommy shirt. Talk about kicking me while I’m down!
I was thinking on the way home today that I need to start finishing up some songs. I’ve always wanted to write a song called The Distance since I heard Leeds by the Indigo Girls and today I heard that calling again with another Indigo song. Then I got to thinking that could be the title of the Joel song. I have the chorus but I can shift it around and get it in there somewhere. Then again the chorus is “What am I gonna do? You know that I’m in love with you.” But I wasn’t in love with him. I’m sure I’ll come up with something.
Chew on that!