Yes, bring on the April showers! Finally we have rain! I wasn’t happy driving in the rain at night because I can’t see but I was glad to be unhappy with the little drops of rain the on the windshield. Tammy and I did our usual Friday night but with out Rad Rod, because the bastard skipped town on us. I finally talked to him the other day and told him that I was still mad but I’ll get over it. He said that he had talked to Sean & Scott and they mentioned having a house warming when he gets settled and I, of course being the bitter man that I am said I wasn’t going to be there. His reply was to tell me that I would be sitting at home alone while they were all out having fun. I don’t think he expected my reply of, “And you point is what? How soon you forget the nights I sat here alone when Sean & I weren’t talking. What else do you have?”
I can now add older man to my resume of life. I picked up my bifocals the other day and I can now see the world clearly. They are a blessing and a curse! It’s good that I can see but I thought I’d only have to wear them for driving and reading and I was told to wear the for 2 weeks to get my eyes used to them. Now when I take them off to give my eyes a break I can’t see a damn thing! I was flipping channels the other day and I found myself stopping at VH1 Country. Gawd am I that old? Yes, I am that old because the next day I was at Erin’s desk asking to she had Tim McGraw or JoDee Messina, which she did and I promptly took home to make copies. Tonight I even picked up the JoDee Messina’s Greatest Hits as well as Dolly Parton’s Greatest Hits. I had to even it out with Janet Jackson’s new CD. I’m turning into my Mother at the age of 36! She started listening to Country when she hit 50 and Dad started shortly thereafter.
I’ve started walking again. I can’t fit fat, lazy, ugly, and old on my life resume so I’m trying to take the fat and lazy out and just leave ugly and old. Christi and I walked around the lake the other day and I actually felt pretty good afterward, I wasn’t too exhausted or sore. I really want a dog now so I can take her for a walk and it would be a great incentive to get my lazy ass out there. I’m going to walk to the bank in the morning to deposit my check, then again I might not if it’s raining too hard.
I have a new crush at work and his name is David. I know this because he happened to be in the elevator with us the other day and I scanned him to find his name badge. I don’t remember when he caught my eye, maybe a month ago. He looks to be in his early to mid 20’s and he’s just too cute, even though he looks a bit red neckish at times. He walks by us everyday on break and we’ve been making eye contact and in an Alley McBeal moment he nodded at me. Margo and Christi don’t think he’s gay so I’ll have to end my crush before I turn into a stalker. Truth be told I didn’t get the eye contact today on break and he did give me kind of a scowl in the elevator. I did agree to go to Charlie’s next week but I’m starting to feel that all too familiar feeling of I don’t belong welling up. I don’t usually think that poorly of myself but I’m starting to feel like the ugly old troll man that no one wants to go out with. I am going to try and force myself to go so maybe I can finally come to terms with my demons.
I did buy the Olivia DVD Tuesday and with only 5 video’s, it left me wanting more. It was great to see “A Little More Love”, “Deeper Than The Night”, and “Totally Hot” but I want more! I think she needs to release a video collection on DVD with her older videos. Maybe with the box set she’ll have something.
Chew on that!